I hate Bangkok! Literally, hate it. I feel intimidated and scared by all those people, cars and noise. People are not nice here. Since I have arrived only one local smiled at me. One!! In Chiang Mai everyone smiles. This is not the Land of Smiles they advertise on TV.
I have been here a couple of times before and I liked it. I didn’t love it, but I didn’t hate it like I do now. Mind you, I haven’t been out of Chiang Mai area for almost a year. This is something unusual for me. I sometimes had an urge to go away and change location, but that happened only a couple of times and lasted only a second.
Now, when I am finally travelling – a thing that I like to do the most in my life – I just want to go back home. ‘Home’ meaning my lovely Chiang Mai, where my friends are, and my flat is, and where I can drive my scooter everywhere, and where I don’t have to take train, nor stand in a queue to the taxi boat in 40 degrees heat.
This has never happened to me before. I never wanted to go back to London when I was on holiday. Strange…Is it possible that I can finally call a place a home?
The only thing is…Like my relationship with HIM, my relationship with Chiang Mai has an expiry date, too.
Jami said:
Maybe it’s your home “now”. I say embrace the moment of loving someone and somewhere! Even with an end in site, cuz we never know anyway, what life shall bring. Take care in Bangkok!
divorcedandsingleblog said:
Oh you know how hard it is for me to live in a moment. I am scared of so many things that might happen.
Jami said:
I am too, and I make it my life mission to release myself from it. It’s not easy, especially when our lifestyle are so different from our friends and family “back home”…