I was just reading a few things I wrote a while ago about my divorce. It’s all in Polish, so I am not even going to quote it here. It is a bit like a journal, and I must say it is written rather well (I am a good writer in my native tongue, believe it or not). The ‘memoires’ start from my holiday in Had Rin and then after around 4 pages go into the break up with the X. This was when I stopped reading. Is it possible  that these memories are still too painful for me? Maybe I am cheating myself by saying that I am over the X and what happened? Maybe that’s why I feel so shitty? But, if that’s true, then how do I heal myself?